sapphire2309: (heart)
2017-05-12 07:36 am

[sticky entry] Sticky: The chairs here are comfy, and I don't bite, but my bark can be sharp and foreboding. Or: Welcome!

hi, hello, welcome! )

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sapphire2309: (Kate)
2017-10-21 09:04 pm


i am literally having a conversation with tumblrbot rn. wtf.

i changed my chaos tumblr's name to lullabyforahelix, btw. i am now a tswift fanblog. i think.

i think i've already talked about ...ready for it?. but it is still a spectacular song. the "burton to this taylor" line still slays me.

4. how do you take your coffee/tea?

with a fUCKTON of sugar. about four times the about of sugar my mom takes. tea without milk, coffee with milk. i like black tea, sulaimani chai (lemon + honey + mint), ginger honey lemon tea, and orange+spice tisanes. i like citrusy flavours. green tea is gonna take me a while to get used to.

okay goodnight.
sapphire2309: (Sara)
2017-10-21 06:55 pm


On a first listen, Gorgeous doesn't seem to have any of the lyrical sharpness promised in reputation, but listen again and goOD GODDAMN THIS SONG IS A FKN PARODY AND IT IS HILARIOUS AND BRILLIANT I AM SUNK AND DROWNED AND DEAD SEND HELP. oh and THAT DING. SLAYED AND GONE. THAT FKN DING.

On a lighter, more cool-headed note:

3. what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?

bills, all the freaking time. when i buy a book, i always hold on to the bill, because knowing me, i'm gonna start reading the second i have my hands on it and knowing me, there are zero bookmarks in my backpack.

i also have this really cool handcrafted metal bookmark, which is not paper, so it counts.

i remember using a book to bookmark another book at one point. my pencil box in school, always. my phone, if nothing else is handy. laptop charger wire once, i think.

if nothing's handy, i leave the book facedown. the literal LAST resort is dog-earing a page. i hate dog-earing books.
sapphire2309: (Sara)
2017-10-21 04:46 pm

The CollarCorner Gen Exchange is a GO!

(banner by [personal profile] nywcgirl)

We just need any interested people to fill one last poll. Any White Collar fannish people interested?

(this is my first time modding a thing i am so scared and also SO FKN EXCITED.)
sapphire2309: (Kate)
2017-10-20 08:27 am

you can see it with the lights out // you are in love // true love

2. do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintry day?

um, we don't really have a winter in the sense of snowball fights and white christmases? but it does get cold in december, and it hails about once or twice during winter. and i like the... i wouldn't say cold, but cool? it makes me happy. like rain makes me happy. (omg running around in the rain always makes me SO FKN HAPPY. like AUTOMATIC happy. monsoon is the fkn BEST.)

You Are In Love is one of those TSwift songs that is considered "not her best". But even at "not her best", she soothes my soul so much? like, it's a very lovely world to step into. she's describing a very soft love and addressing it to you, which is the sweetest thing? like she wants you to have this? i'm melting.
sapphire2309: (Kate)
2017-10-19 04:06 pm

so we kill it like a buffalo with awe and with respect

[ profile] manue7a just did part of a giant 100 days (things?) meme to kill time, and i guess i'm doing it now?

1. when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?

more cereal, always. i mean, i like my cereal a little soggy, but also i REALLY don't like milk? (i don't like the taste, and also it gives me gas.) so i just let the cereal sit around in JUST enough milk for a little while, and once most of the milk is absorbed, go forth and nom.

(also, cereal first, then milk. i don't know how anyone does it the other way round without cringing.)

yes, i'm still hooked to This Too Shall Pass. it's a beautiful song with a lot of lyrics and a lot of layers, all of which i haven't properly listened to and analysed yet. ugh this song has SO MUCH to it i am dying. i want to be able to write like this. (i'm remembering what i love about writing! this is good!)

(for anyone who wants it, i'll post the entire meme in a comment below because i don't want it clogging up this (or any) entry, and also like for my reference?)

i picked the kate icon because that's pretty much what i look like when i'm neutral-happy. <3
sapphire2309: (Elizabeth)
2017-10-17 02:06 pm

and i'll look out the window and make jokes about the way things are

([personal profile] china_shop posted about the origin of her name (see: the lyrics of You Had Time by Ani DiFranco), and it's exam time for me now, and this is my exam regret song, so it seems appropriate to listen to it now xD)

i'm not entirely fond of the piano intro of this song - the piano sounds high-pitched somehow, and i have a long dislike for high-pitched sounds - but overall, it sets the tone for the rest of the song quite well.

this song takes its time (heh) and is soft and mournful and the lyrics are sharper than needles and it is my kind of song.

exams are nigh )
sapphire2309: (Dottie)
2017-10-15 06:42 pm

pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit que tu m'aimais encore....

carla bruni is a surprisingly good singer. she has this rasp in her voice that straight up KILLS me. i am in love. but otoh i'm in love with different things everyday. but ot3h isn't that the way to live?

another surprising thing about her: there's no politics in the comment threads. i was expecting stuff about sarkozy and the state of french politics, but it was all about the music. i don't know whether to be thrilled at the niceness of people or sad at my cynicism and background sexism-ish thing idk what to call it.

i'm obsessed send help.

in other news: i'm making lists of things i want to do and things i'm doing for the next month or so. i suspect i won't be v productive while sorting things out, but that's ok. inktober will probably stretch into november seeing as i've only done 5 days so far, but no one's judging, right? c: this is a thing i'm doing to make me happy. it's not going to become a stressor because i won't let it.

i found a good reference for the thing i want to do for day 5's prompt! i should start uploading these things to my chaos tumblr maybe xD

also, i've sorted my phone contacts, which is currently a mess of my ENTIRE FAMILY's contacts, all through the A's. There are a LOT of desi names that start with A. I predict that I should be able to knock off B and C tomorrow.
sapphire2309: (Default)
2017-10-11 08:18 pm

*flailsquees all over your flist*




eta - also eugh i really dislike listening to my own voice. i keep JUDGING it. like, me @ me rn: you sound too desi. also me: YOU ARE NOT DESI ENOUGH DAMMIT. me, looking at me: *hands*

eta2 - i'm sidetracking into music i need to focus on art and academics this month. the thing is, i'm interested in so many things that it's REALLY HECKIN EASY to get distracted and just go around chasing new shinies. i want to see progress, and improve. i'm going to have to rein myself in a little.

also, this is turning into more of a blog than a fanfic journal. what opinions do you have on my removing all my fic tags and just grouping all the fics under fandom tags and making "fannish things" tags for the various shows/movies i tend to talk about? the main way i post fanfic now is direct to AO3, so it doesn't make much sense to keep those tags around anymore. i'd delete the fics too, but comments <3
sapphire2309: (Default)
2017-10-06 06:46 pm

she's a mystic in the sense that she's still mystified by things

not like i've been the most regular ficcer, but taking a definite break now. will post on weekends, but weekdays are for studying for upcoming exams and betaing fics i've committed to beta. and also inktober!!

and i realised that it's also kinktober. so i will fill those prompts in december probably. nov is nanowrimo and i want to focus on goldeneye.

i like planning things!
sapphire2309: (Default)
2017-10-05 06:30 pm

things change fast, this too shall pass, better carve it on your forehead or tattoo it on your ass.

i'm trialling three different guided meditation apps. it seems to be helping me, so i'm gonna stay with it. (the thing is, anyone who "suggests" stuff like this to me in that "this will FIX you!" way will get shot down like WHOA, but when i try it for myself, in my own time, i'm MUCH more amenable to it. there aren't really many people like me who go "this thing worked for me, it might or might not help you".)

hopefully i fall asleep by 8:30 ish tonight: another 530 wakeup. i slept for 13 hours last night but am still getting a bit tired, which is good. also, i baked banana muffins and dark chocolate + walnut + whole wheat cookies today. won't be scrambling to fix myself breakfast at 6 am anymore, yay.

editing long fics for a couple people and also doing inktober, so will probably only post fic on the weekend.

i've been noticing/remembering all the tiny ways in which my brain does not quite behave like others' brains do, which makes me a little more confident in the fact that i'm not just throwing around words like "autistic" and "pathological demand avoidance" for the heck of it.

i would like to acknowledge the privilege i possess, in being born to relatively wealthy, liberal Indian parents who give me access to mental health care and accept my sapphic nature.

i'm generally doing a lot better. settling down into a routine. i like the space i'm in.

i should probably start gymming again. soon.
sapphire2309: (Sameen Shaw)
2017-10-03 07:26 pm

in random:

i have joined taylor swift tumblr (via my chaos tumblr, which will soon see original content for the first time :O ) and am participating in inktober. i've always made it known that i SUCK at drawing, so this is surprisingly enjoyable, and i think i'm learning how to make art for pleasure again. maybe i should make it known that i suck at writing. (hahaha won't work too much of my self-worth is tied to my facility with the english language.)
sapphire2309: (Default)
2017-09-26 11:23 am

marvel is marvel is BACK!

not sure i'll be signing up for this - i'm being VERY careful with commitments i make because spoons are unpredictable - but it's interesting as always! nominations are currently open. i'm gonna hold on for a bit before nominating my faves, because i have a LOT of faves and not enough nomination spots and if other people have some of the same faves as me then i have more spots for other more obscure faves?

banner by broadbeam

details! )
sapphire2309: (Root)
2017-09-17 07:48 pm

all that a stranger would see is one girl, swaying alone, stroking her cheek

doing A LOT better already on the physical health front. probably going to ignore fic/poetry for the next couple days though - my brain is still not 100% online.

in random: lately, the only way i can fall asleep is by constructing fics i'll probably never write. why do i do this. help me.

my soundtrack for the rest of the year, most likely: tswift's reputation, halsey's hfk, melanie martinez's crybaby, and lorde's melodrama. (might add an album or two from my backlog of to-listen ani difranco or andrew bird or fiona apple, but then again, might not.)
sapphire2309: (Default)
2017-09-10 06:04 pm

Chris Gethard: Career Suicide.

IMDb calls this a "comedy documentary". UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE CENTURY. The tagline is a much better descriptor: Comedy can be found in the darkest of places.

Chris Gethard talks about depression and alcoholism and suicidality, and manages to be funny and empathetic at the same time. I did not once feel like the butt of a joke while listening to him. That is an amazing feeling.

The emotional rollercoaster he takes you on is very much like the one you board when you open your Tumblr dashboard - one minute, he's telling you about some of the worst times in his life, and the next, you're laughing along with him. It's one of the best things I've experienced. This AV Club review says it all better than I could.

If you're so inclined, check it out. I think it's worth your time.
sapphire2309: (Elizabeth)
2017-09-10 01:59 pm

podfic: one thousand cranes by hoosierbitch

content notes: major character death, grief

find it at: ao3 || tumblr

read the fic at ao3

this is my first podfic! please be kind c:
sapphire2309: (Rachel)
2017-09-09 09:22 pm

t swift, you're on FIYAH

1. This reaction video to T-Swift's Look What You Made Me Do. I understand the point of view of everyone in that video. The only thing I have to dispute is that pop music can ABSOLUTELY be revolutionary, Dominic. And T-Swift is pretty revolutionary right now.

2. ...Ready For It?, T-Swift's new single. ALL THE LYRICAL COMPLEXITY i wanted from Look What You Made Me Do is here. T-Swift has not changed god bless. also. THAT BEAT.

3. This mashup of Tag You're It by Melanie Martinez and Look What You Made Me Do by Taylor Swift. The beat is SICK, Melanie adds some much needed lyrical intricacy, and everything is amaze. I am SHOOK.

BONUS: Halsey - Bad At Love (stripped). So much good music coming out right now, guys, I can't handle it it's too beautiful.
sapphire2309: (Dottie)
2017-09-08 09:59 pm


my tumblr is still making explody noises. i have no idea what's going on there. i'm just gonna roll with it and keep on writing for myself and keep on keeping on. (for interested parties, i write into the tumblr queue, and one poem/prose piece/art-ish thing goes up at 11:00 pm every day my time. i'm trying to keep it consistent.)

I feel SO HECKIN CREATIVE right now, guys. I have a few DIY projects lined up for the weekend and I am EXCITE.

i need a better diana icon.

i've finally finalised my podficcing/fanmixing AO3 pseud! it is lullabyforahelix. (in which helix refers to the rim of the shell of your ear. this is a real thing!) i might start posting to it this weekend. (keeping the might there just in case shit hits the fan. i have something recorded and almost ready to go, though!)

i'm still limiting my /fic ao3/dw reading page/ access, and not being very active in either place. i'll get back to normal soon though. the important bit is keeping this creative energy alive.

omg. i'm happy, you guys. *falls off chair*